Keep up the good work.

Date: 10-19-09
Starting Weight: 219.6
Current Weight: 188.6 (190.8)
Goal Weight: 175
Loss Since Last Weigh In: 1.3 (2.2)
Total Weight loss: 31 (28.8)
Pounds left to lose: 13.6 (15.8)

I decided to do my stats a little differently from now on. The stubborn side of me can’t choose to post Biggest Loser stats or my own from home. I feel like I want to have honest numbers up for the contest but I also don’t want to discredit the main scale I have been weighing on since day one. Well day one after the big scale fiasco of 09’ I blogged about. Anyways the stats in black are my stats from home and I decided to change the color and put my Biggest Loser stats in parentheses. I will do it this way from now on.

I didn’t update because of a lack of time and motivation last week after the Biggest Loser results came back in. I won top Loser for the week! Whoop. I also moved up to third place in the overall standings. I don’t count on staying there because of how close the others are, but only time will tell. Another 2.2 pounds down this week. My prize was also a choice of a few certificates. I ended up choosing one for a free t-shirt from Cleanline. I am sure I will just give it to my sister, I can’t imagine shopping there. I think I would feel too out of place.

Seventeen more days left until my cruise. I am taking a ten day or so break from the Medifast diet. I think it will be a good test to see how I will do when I am ready to really transition off of it. Although, free food, room service, and endless amount of time for drinking isn’t exactly a real world situation test. It’s sort of a drastic test and one that I am concerned about. I am worried about how much I will gain back and about how difficult it will be to start up again after I am back in my normal swing of things. My family just wants me to relax and have a good time and not worry about it. I think after a couple days I will be able to. Seventeen more days to slim down a little bit more for the fitted dress I got. I will post a few pictures when I get back.

Lately I have been using my aunt as an even bigger motivation. She is looking so great and only a few pounds away from my second goal of 155. I couldn’t imagine getting down to that size but I believe that anything is possible if I try hard enough.

My goal this week is to learn a healthier way to deal with the random “snack attacks” I get on the weekends, or when I have a lot of down time. I have been obsessing (that maybe too strong a word) with food and watching the clock for when I can eat next. I am not usually hungry let alone starving to the point of staring at the clock. I am just bored and use food as a way to occupy my time. This is such a negative habit to have and even more dangerous for after I am finished with Medifast. I haven’t found a good way to deal with this yet. I am defiantly interested in some feedback from people who have found constructive ways of dealing with it. Sometimes that extra bottle of water just doesn’t cut it! I have managed to still stick to Medifast to the T, but am just searching for something to ease my way a little bit.

Quote for today by an unknown author. Remember this as we are on our journey to loving ourselves Inside and out!

“It's not who you are that holds you back, it's who you think you're not.”
<3 Tiffany