Date: 09-28-09
Starting Weight: 219.6
Current Weight: 198.2
Goal Weight: 175
Loss Since Last Weigh In: 1.7
Total Weight loss: 21.4
Pounds left to lose: 23.2
Biggest Loser weigh in number four. I am happy about the weight loss, more than happy, ecstatic. Frustrated that I can’t just weigh in on my scale at home and take a picture for proof. Lol. My scale seems more eager to drop the pounds. I was fairly confident going in of a three or maybe even four pound loss. On weigh in Mondays I don’t even drink my water until I have weighed in. Somehow in an hour I gained back two pounds that have been off all weekend…. Like I said, I am partial to my scale. (Insert pouty face here).
Today my health coach Jackie emailed me to check up on me. She was just checking in to see if I needed any support or to me answers to any questions I might have. We sent a few emails back and forth just chit chatting about my progress. Although I didn’t say my frustrations I feel a lot better after talking with her. Who cares what the Biggest Loser scale says anyways? I feel like every Monday this common issue keeps popping up. Can’t I learn that although the numbers dropping are the main goal, but they are not the only perk of being on this diet. She also reminded me that I have only been at this for six weeks. 21 pounds is an amazing accomplishment. This shows the importance of having someone who is open ears to listen to your frustrations and celebrations along the way. I am lucky that I have so much support. Otherwise all of the good, the bad, and the ugly thoughts probably would overwhelm me. Find someone to help keep you accountable and hold your hand. There is no need to do this alone.
On the lighter side of things, I love the way I am starting to look. Although I don’t see any remarkable changes I am feeling sexier than I have in ages. Thank god there isn’t a camera in my room to count how many times I am looking at myself in the mirror. Lol. I also just bought two new cocktail dresses for the cruise. I am hoping to slim down a little bit beforehand so that they look perfect. For $20.00 apiece I couldn’t turn them down. I think they look really great too. It was a confidence booster and also a great reward for all of my hard work.
Here's an encouraging quote:
"If you have made mistakes, there is always another chance for you. You may have a fresh start any moment you choose, for this thing we call 'failure' is not the falling down, but the staying down. "
-Mary Pickford
Monday, September 28, 2009
Monday, September 21, 2009
Self Image
Date: 09-21-2009
Starting Weight: 219.6
Current Weight: 199.9
Goal Weight: 175
Loss Since Last Weigh In: 3.2
Total Weight loss: 19.7
Pounds left to lose: 24.9
Weigh in number three. I am so close to my twenty pound mark it’s driving me crazy. I am so happy to finally be under two hundred. I can’t tell you the last time my weight started with a one. I know that it’s incredibly unhealthy and I am vowing to myself never to let it get back into the two hundreds again. With the exception of if I have kids someday.
I am thinking about my body two years ago and how I let myself get to 265. When I looked at myself in the mirror, I didn’t feel THAT overweight. Sure there were things I wanted to change, but I didn’t feel that I looked that out of shape. I was up to wearing a size 20 dress and jeans. It had a lot to do with living with my ex. He was incredibly thin and ate enough food for an entire football team in one sitting. I guess I got used to over eating. The only problem is he wouldn’t put a pound on and I was gaining for both of us without knowing it. The first 45 pounds I dropped weren’t any huge changes. I simply ate less. I stopped eating when I felt full and it fell off. Small changes can make a big difference. If you aren’t ready to take the full leap, take baby steps. Somewhere down the road you will thank yourself.
Sometime when I feel a little more comfortable in my own skin I will post some pictures of myself from those times and compare to how I am now. Friends that weren’t around for that time in my life say that I look like a completely different person. I have to agree. It’s nice to laugh and be able to smile and know that I have come a long ways even before I started my new diet. The main reason I started in August was because I noticed my patterns were starting to be like they used to be and slowly but surely I was putting weight back on pound by pound. I refused to wake up one morning and be back in that place.
My current diet is chugging along great. I haven’t really put in that much exercise. In the next coming weeks I am hoping for my leg pain to be less and then I can add a little walk up some of the steeper hills by my house. Probably three times a week to start. Along with dropping the pounds I need to start getting back into shape too! My goal for this week, is to start eatting my meals a little slower. As this diet turns into habit, I notice myself just keeping with the schedule but I missing an important peice. A main componet of this diet is learning to pace yourself while eating and knowing proportions. I am going to work on those goals, to help better my success after I am done with Medifast.
This weekend when I finally dropped below the 200 mark, was the first time I looked in the mirror and thought to myself “you look beautiful today.” As women I really feel that we should feel and tell ourselves that every day. No matter how bloated, chubby, or grumpy we feel. If we don’t appreciate our bodies, how can we expect a man or anyone else for that matter to appreciate us? I am finally feeling like I don’t need a husband or a date to validate my self worth.
Keep up the good work everyone! A quote for the deeply poetic:
“A better self-image doesn't pay the rent or cook supper or prevent nuclear war. Feeling better about ourselves doesn't change the world by itself, but it can give us energy to do what we want and to work for change.”
-Our Bodies, Ourselves for the New Century
Starting Weight: 219.6
Current Weight: 199.9
Goal Weight: 175
Loss Since Last Weigh In: 3.2
Total Weight loss: 19.7
Pounds left to lose: 24.9
Weigh in number three. I am so close to my twenty pound mark it’s driving me crazy. I am so happy to finally be under two hundred. I can’t tell you the last time my weight started with a one. I know that it’s incredibly unhealthy and I am vowing to myself never to let it get back into the two hundreds again. With the exception of if I have kids someday.
I am thinking about my body two years ago and how I let myself get to 265. When I looked at myself in the mirror, I didn’t feel THAT overweight. Sure there were things I wanted to change, but I didn’t feel that I looked that out of shape. I was up to wearing a size 20 dress and jeans. It had a lot to do with living with my ex. He was incredibly thin and ate enough food for an entire football team in one sitting. I guess I got used to over eating. The only problem is he wouldn’t put a pound on and I was gaining for both of us without knowing it. The first 45 pounds I dropped weren’t any huge changes. I simply ate less. I stopped eating when I felt full and it fell off. Small changes can make a big difference. If you aren’t ready to take the full leap, take baby steps. Somewhere down the road you will thank yourself.
Sometime when I feel a little more comfortable in my own skin I will post some pictures of myself from those times and compare to how I am now. Friends that weren’t around for that time in my life say that I look like a completely different person. I have to agree. It’s nice to laugh and be able to smile and know that I have come a long ways even before I started my new diet. The main reason I started in August was because I noticed my patterns were starting to be like they used to be and slowly but surely I was putting weight back on pound by pound. I refused to wake up one morning and be back in that place.
My current diet is chugging along great. I haven’t really put in that much exercise. In the next coming weeks I am hoping for my leg pain to be less and then I can add a little walk up some of the steeper hills by my house. Probably three times a week to start. Along with dropping the pounds I need to start getting back into shape too! My goal for this week, is to start eatting my meals a little slower. As this diet turns into habit, I notice myself just keeping with the schedule but I missing an important peice. A main componet of this diet is learning to pace yourself while eating and knowing proportions. I am going to work on those goals, to help better my success after I am done with Medifast.
This weekend when I finally dropped below the 200 mark, was the first time I looked in the mirror and thought to myself “you look beautiful today.” As women I really feel that we should feel and tell ourselves that every day. No matter how bloated, chubby, or grumpy we feel. If we don’t appreciate our bodies, how can we expect a man or anyone else for that matter to appreciate us? I am finally feeling like I don’t need a husband or a date to validate my self worth.
Keep up the good work everyone! A quote for the deeply poetic:
“A better self-image doesn't pay the rent or cook supper or prevent nuclear war. Feeling better about ourselves doesn't change the world by itself, but it can give us energy to do what we want and to work for change.”
-Our Bodies, Ourselves for the New Century
Monday, September 14, 2009
The Big Picture
Date: 09-14-09
Starting Weight: 219.6
Current Weight: 203.1Goal Weight: 175
Loss Since Last Weigh In: 1.8
Total Weight loss: 16.5
Pounds left to lose: 28.1
Biggest Loser weigh-in number 2. I can’t say I am not disappointed. Thinking about it you are supposed to average a loss 3-5 pounds a week. I only lost 1.8 pounds since last Tuesday. I guess if you want to get into technicalities it hasn’t been a whole week. I seriously doubt a 2 pound loss or more tonight. I guess this weekend added to the disappointment. On Friday I was the “sober driver” for my friends to a house party and outing in Long Beach. I didn’t have one sip of alcohol or any of the 4 cheese ziti and garlic bread everyone had for dinner. I just waited to drive up there until I ate my chicken cesar salad. Then, Saturday was the fireman’s ball. Again I was the good girl. Although the strict rule is: beer and blackjack, you can’t have one without the other.
I am trying to look at the big picture here. Three more days and I have been on my diet for a month. I can’t believe how fast it has gone by and hasn’t been that hard to stick to. 4 more pounds until my 20 pound a month goal. I don’t know if I will make it in the next three days. I feel so frustrated at times, although my main goal is 175. I can’t wait to get out of the two hundreds. I feel desperate for it. Lastly I feel like it’s this impossible hump to get over and it’s just dangling there.
It’s so hard to see the progress I have made. It’s right in front of me! I have clothes that are baggy on me. Co-workers that are daily complementing me on my dedication to this diet and how they can tell I am losing weight. I just can’t see it. I know this blog might seem like a constant complaint line. I am just trying to shed some light that although it isn’t easy, keep up the good work. If I can work on filling my glass to half full, anyone can.
I am making steady process. This past year (and three months) has been nothing but me learning to love myself, because someone showed me I wasn’t worth love. Man, that is a hard wall to put back up, after it’s been broken down. I think that’s why this journey has been even harder for me.
The new me. The new me. The new me. Here I come!
<3 Tiffany
Starting Weight: 219.6
Current Weight: 203.1Goal Weight: 175
Loss Since Last Weigh In: 1.8
Total Weight loss: 16.5
Pounds left to lose: 28.1
Biggest Loser weigh-in number 2. I can’t say I am not disappointed. Thinking about it you are supposed to average a loss 3-5 pounds a week. I only lost 1.8 pounds since last Tuesday. I guess if you want to get into technicalities it hasn’t been a whole week. I seriously doubt a 2 pound loss or more tonight. I guess this weekend added to the disappointment. On Friday I was the “sober driver” for my friends to a house party and outing in Long Beach. I didn’t have one sip of alcohol or any of the 4 cheese ziti and garlic bread everyone had for dinner. I just waited to drive up there until I ate my chicken cesar salad. Then, Saturday was the fireman’s ball. Again I was the good girl. Although the strict rule is: beer and blackjack, you can’t have one without the other.
I am trying to look at the big picture here. Three more days and I have been on my diet for a month. I can’t believe how fast it has gone by and hasn’t been that hard to stick to. 4 more pounds until my 20 pound a month goal. I don’t know if I will make it in the next three days. I feel so frustrated at times, although my main goal is 175. I can’t wait to get out of the two hundreds. I feel desperate for it. Lastly I feel like it’s this impossible hump to get over and it’s just dangling there.
It’s so hard to see the progress I have made. It’s right in front of me! I have clothes that are baggy on me. Co-workers that are daily complementing me on my dedication to this diet and how they can tell I am losing weight. I just can’t see it. I know this blog might seem like a constant complaint line. I am just trying to shed some light that although it isn’t easy, keep up the good work. If I can work on filling my glass to half full, anyone can.
I am making steady process. This past year (and three months) has been nothing but me learning to love myself, because someone showed me I wasn’t worth love. Man, that is a hard wall to put back up, after it’s been broken down. I think that’s why this journey has been even harder for me.
The new me. The new me. The new me. Here I come!
<3 Tiffany
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
Call me queen of the losers.
Date: 09-08-09
Starting Weight: 219.6
Current Weight: 204.9
Goal Weight: 175
Loss Since Last Weigh In: 4
Total Weight loss: 14.7
Pounds left to lose: 29.9
Okay queen might be tooting my own horn a bit much. I will take princess loser instead. Week one for the biggest loser competition is going good. I decided for Mondays weigh ins (Tuesday today because of the holiday) I would change up my routine a bit. Instead of drinking my normal 2 cups of water when I get ready in the morning, plus whatever I can sip off my huge Providence mug of ice water. I will only have my Medifast shake until I can weigh in at 8 o’clock. That way I am not carrying around a bunch of water with me for weigh ins. Every other day I will succumb to my fish like need for water bright and early.
Today I stepped on the scale and I felt good. This weekend I did pretty well and knew that going in. I thought that the scale gods might not be on my side (cup half empty mentality my mother hates). I took my shoes and my work jacket off just in case. I hear they weigh at least 20 pounds each. lol. And walla! I lost 6 pounds (per their scales) since last weigh in. I think I have a good chance for the prizes this week. Six pounds is a lot of weight for one week. I think this will probably be my last weigh in at that high of a number. In one of the previous competitions, a contestant lost over 60 pounds. I won’t probably be having that good of a turn out in three months, but I am okay with that. You never know how your competition is doing. The good thing is people are getting out there and being healthier in small steps or big ones as long as you are inching toward that finish line of a healthy life. Sometimes it’s not that fun but I want to be around to live a long and healthy life for my family’s sake.
I will update with the results of who wins the prizes this week. So far I am glad I signed up, but it is a bit more pressure than usual. My health coach Jackie also sent out a great “chain” type of email for a healthy recipe swap. Hopefully it turns out and I can get some great new things to try!
Tonight is also a long work meeting; they are supplying everyone with yummy Subway because we will be there through dinner. I will have to go home after work and make my dinner ahead of time so I can bring it. Subway is not on my menu unfortunately. Hopefully it won’t be too torturous of an hour and a half. Oh did I mention cookies, chips, and pop as well? I may need to bust out the serenity prayer to keep my food addiction at bay (I kid, I kid).
Starting Weight: 219.6
Current Weight: 204.9
Goal Weight: 175
Loss Since Last Weigh In: 4
Total Weight loss: 14.7
Pounds left to lose: 29.9
Okay queen might be tooting my own horn a bit much. I will take princess loser instead. Week one for the biggest loser competition is going good. I decided for Mondays weigh ins (Tuesday today because of the holiday) I would change up my routine a bit. Instead of drinking my normal 2 cups of water when I get ready in the morning, plus whatever I can sip off my huge Providence mug of ice water. I will only have my Medifast shake until I can weigh in at 8 o’clock. That way I am not carrying around a bunch of water with me for weigh ins. Every other day I will succumb to my fish like need for water bright and early.
Today I stepped on the scale and I felt good. This weekend I did pretty well and knew that going in. I thought that the scale gods might not be on my side (cup half empty mentality my mother hates). I took my shoes and my work jacket off just in case. I hear they weigh at least 20 pounds each. lol. And walla! I lost 6 pounds (per their scales) since last weigh in. I think I have a good chance for the prizes this week. Six pounds is a lot of weight for one week. I think this will probably be my last weigh in at that high of a number. In one of the previous competitions, a contestant lost over 60 pounds. I won’t probably be having that good of a turn out in three months, but I am okay with that. You never know how your competition is doing. The good thing is people are getting out there and being healthier in small steps or big ones as long as you are inching toward that finish line of a healthy life. Sometimes it’s not that fun but I want to be around to live a long and healthy life for my family’s sake.
I will update with the results of who wins the prizes this week. So far I am glad I signed up, but it is a bit more pressure than usual. My health coach Jackie also sent out a great “chain” type of email for a healthy recipe swap. Hopefully it turns out and I can get some great new things to try!
Tonight is also a long work meeting; they are supplying everyone with yummy Subway because we will be there through dinner. I will have to go home after work and make my dinner ahead of time so I can bring it. Subway is not on my menu unfortunately. Hopefully it won’t be too torturous of an hour and a half. Oh did I mention cookies, chips, and pop as well? I may need to bust out the serenity prayer to keep my food addiction at bay (I kid, I kid).
Thursday, September 3, 2009
The Biggest Loser?
My employer Providence Hospital is putting on a biggest loser contest. All employee’s and local people in the community have a chance to participate. You can join for free or choose to pay a ten dollar fee which enters you in the prize contest. At the end of 90 days, the first, second, and third people who have the highest loss in body fat percentage split up the pot (all of the ten dollar entries paid). First place gets 50%, second place gets 30%, and third place gets 20%. This is a contest that they hold regularly but the first time I have participated. I know one occasion the winner received 600 dollars. Sign up’s are the week of August 31st and the contests final weigh in is on November 31st.
Weigh ins are every Monday. Each week the top two losers will also receive rewards. They can be anything from gift certificates, pool admissions, and aquarium passes. I guess I won’t know unless I get one!
At first I was apprehensive to do the contest. For starters before beginning Medifast I never really weighed myself. I worked hard and if the results showed they did, if not it was no big deal. Now I have been weighing myself every day and feel the pressure I am putting on myself to show results. I know I am working hard. I know I am eating right, and doing everything I am supposed to be doing. Some days that isn’t enough for me mentally. When the better part of myself knows it should be. I felt like starting the biggest loser challenge would just be one more thing to add the pressure on. I decided to go against my gut, and go with the advice of family and friends. Also with a little jump start from my health coach too. They had confidence in me and that made me realize how often I don’t give myself enough credit.
I started the journey today with my first weigh in. My stats are still the same as Monday. 208 when I weighed myself this morning. Although after 3 Medifast meals and 60 ounces of water is when I did my official weigh in. I weighed in at 210. I was advised by other co-workers to drink as much water as I could stand and then go to give myself a little heads up. I am sticking by my morning weigh in of 208 for my official weight loss journal I am keeping. I guess I am just stubborn like that. I will update my blog with every biggest loser weigh in and maybe throw in some extra days if anything really eventful happens.
Stay tuned. I know I need to spice up my blog with some photos too. Wish me luck. I could really use that moolah! Keep up the hard work everyone.
<3
Tiffany
Weigh ins are every Monday. Each week the top two losers will also receive rewards. They can be anything from gift certificates, pool admissions, and aquarium passes. I guess I won’t know unless I get one!
At first I was apprehensive to do the contest. For starters before beginning Medifast I never really weighed myself. I worked hard and if the results showed they did, if not it was no big deal. Now I have been weighing myself every day and feel the pressure I am putting on myself to show results. I know I am working hard. I know I am eating right, and doing everything I am supposed to be doing. Some days that isn’t enough for me mentally. When the better part of myself knows it should be. I felt like starting the biggest loser challenge would just be one more thing to add the pressure on. I decided to go against my gut, and go with the advice of family and friends. Also with a little jump start from my health coach too. They had confidence in me and that made me realize how often I don’t give myself enough credit.
I started the journey today with my first weigh in. My stats are still the same as Monday. 208 when I weighed myself this morning. Although after 3 Medifast meals and 60 ounces of water is when I did my official weigh in. I weighed in at 210. I was advised by other co-workers to drink as much water as I could stand and then go to give myself a little heads up. I am sticking by my morning weigh in of 208 for my official weight loss journal I am keeping. I guess I am just stubborn like that. I will update my blog with every biggest loser weigh in and maybe throw in some extra days if anything really eventful happens.
Stay tuned. I know I need to spice up my blog with some photos too. Wish me luck. I could really use that moolah! Keep up the hard work everyone.
<3
Tiffany
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